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20050428
look at what I'm dripping with
HOOWAH! Boys WILL Be Men. Sooner than we let on.The IRS and the DMV should really join forces. That would totally rock.
I hope my cough is gone by Saturday. Shoot, I hope my cough is gone in 20 minutes. That would be convienent as well. Oh well, it's just a thing.
Renate, you break the mold, you are a rare species.
pusillanimous \pyoo-suh-LAN-uh-muhs\, adjective:
Lacking in courage and resolution; contemptibly fearful; cowardly.
I don't ever want to be pusillanimous in any aspect of my life. Job, family, ministry, prayer, worship, confrontation, parenting, loving, defending the weak...
Speaking of defense of those who cannot defend themselves, Saturday morning, 7:30am, Hillcrest Clinic, Norfolk Virginia, Red Wrist Band or not, stand up for the generation who can't scream for help.
The Way I See It:
Today I will tell you about how I DIDN'T see it.
Yesterday, Wednesday, while coming back home from my parent's house, my left contact started getting funky. It then started hurting A LOT everytime I blinked. So at a stop light I managed to take my contact out. It was just my left eye that was hurting, and it was hurting a ton. I finally get to the house and go look in the mirror to see if it's an eyelash or dirt or a hubcap or something. I see nothing. Heather takes a look. Nothing. Dave looks. Nothing. My eye at this point is huge and red and feels like someone is very skillfully throwing needles in it everytime I blink. Yeah... weird. So this lasts for maybe an hour and then it's all gone. my eye is still a little sore from rubbing and poking and twisting and drilling it, but it's much better. Never found the alien though.
20050426
fortunes for a quarter... I love quarters
I think I didn't update for a while because I wanted to see how many comments I could get that had absolutely nothing to do with the post that they were attached to. That always amuses me.I used the word exude twice today. I was pleased with myself.
I'm still not 100%, in fact today was probably the worstest of it all. I have a nasty smoker cough going on. Natanya is sweet, she came and played mommy. Thanks Tan, it means a lot.
Honey-Bunny, Sugar-booger, babykins... and other things like that.
So, this Saturday is going to be an interesting day. At 7:30am Hillcrest Clinic, after that we get some breakfast, picket an abortionist's house, go to the Crane's house and play airsoft. And all of that is after an all nighter with the Men. Hoowah!
I hung out with Josh, Hannah, Joey and Heather yesterday. We had a picnic on top of mount trashmore and then we watched airplanes take off at the airport and then we rode the escalators. We had slurpees, they made a tent out of my back seat, then we went home, ate dinner, the girls left and the boys went out to the woods to shoot at eachother. Joshy shot me in the chest. But it's ok, I got him in the neck.
cough cough... It burns! It freezes!
I love my sisters so much. They are so beautiful. I want daughters like them someday.
The new maps for Halo are sweeeeet. Dave got all of the ones that are out now and I think I'm going to start playing again.
Dave is a good roomie. It's cool because we share a lot of stuff and we get along really well. Nothing funny, but I like him. And no Noah, you're not being replaced.
The Way I See It:
I was made for such a time as this. Of course I was! God isn't stupid... He doesn't make mistakes... He didn't have me designed for a different time, a different place or a different era. The reason I am alive right now is because God put me here. Right now. What am I going to do about it? Sometimes I feel like I'm wasting my time, but sometimes I feel like I should pace myself. As far as doing things that matter, and leaving behind a legacy, I don't think I'm dropping the ball, but I do feel like I should have a better attitude about it and stop comparing myself to other people. I tend to compare what I am doing and what I am producing to things that older and wiser people are doing and producing. I'm not saying I shouldn't strive to be where they are, but I guess it's just the look good giant at work. Giants are jerks.
20050423
99 scents
Backdrop is going places... litterally. We have big plans.I'm sick at the moment. It's a little more than allergies I'm afraid. Sore throat, coughing, achey, I feel..... cold. So I'm not going to Daniel's party because I need to be well in time for Sunday night. Sorry, but that's my priority.
I need some chicken noodles. In soup form. And a cold washcloth over my eyes, and medicine. Katie will make a good mother. Thanks for the tips. I'm a single male, I never would have thought of that. And it works.
Thank You God for bringing me to a place where I'm no longer where I was.
The Way I See It:
We are to only be a backdrop for God. We are only to be a reflection of Him. We can't take credit, we can't take glory, praise, honor, prestige, titles, adoration, even high-five should be directed at God. We are to be just a setting for His spirit to move through. If we really love Him, then we will abandon ourselves.
20050418
Shure, Mic.
My hidden agenda is that I want to stay in control so I can remain undisturbed and feel good and in turn look good and have a personal advantage because I want to be right.I finally sit down at the computer today for some browsing/journal reading/updating/e-mailing... and I notice that you can tell the people who were totally emmersed in Youth Weekend because they haven't updated their blogs. Kinda funny how that's the way you can tell people are busy.
Passion. If there were one word that I could sum up Youth Weekend 2005 with it would be "passion". The Greeters were passionate, if not just about name tags. The Ushers were passionate about the bulletins that the bulletiners were passionate about making and designing. The decorators were passionate about creating an atmosphere, and you have to be passionate if you're going to try and build a freakin waterfall. Media was passionate about working out the kinks... and there were many to work out. The actors didn't just act passionate, they were passionate about their lines, their blocking, their timing and the point they were making. The orchestra and dancers exploded with passion in a way that I didn't believe would happen. Backdrop was passionate all week in "practices" and in prayer. Scott was passionate about love, passionate about teaching, passionate about Youth. Including this one, I used some form of the word passion 16 times.
Jesse! STAY!!!
Surprise!
I got up this morning at 7, much to my delight, and jogged to church. I finished cleaning the sanctuary, much thanks to all the help I had last night. Now I'm about run home, finally unpack my bed from the back of my truck, do some yard work, go to the bank, do something else, and maybe go over my parent's house... I don't know.
My family was there. :-D
When the dog bites, when the bee stings, when I'm feeling sad, these are a few of my favorite things.
Dr. Pepper and Chex Mix was the official diet of Youth Weekend 2004, this year it was Mountain Dew, Beef Jerky, and cold french fries.
The Way I See It:
It doesn't have to die... It doesn't have to stop. God moves EVERYDAY. He doesn't just meet us and love on us and touch us on Sunday. As Jon said, worship doesn't have to have anything to do with music. Worship is deep movement of the soul... it's not a sing-a-long.
20050409
pretzel toss
I miss the stars.... I don't see them out here anymore. I want to go there.I wrestled Josh today. He's good.
I have become the airsoft consultant. It's ok with me, the more that get into it, the better. What really gets me is when guys who haven't even held a gun want to go out and get one. It's not a toy boys, and just because you have nice equipment doesn't mean anything except that your gun is pretty. You have to not only know how to use it, but you have to be willing to practice and work at it, and be daring to fight. Your gun does not determine your skill. Your skill should determine your gun.
I can't wait for Youth Weeked, but at the same time, I can't wait for Youth Weekend to be over.
Let's get some quality beach time in this summer. All sorts of stuff. Now that the weather is looking nicer, let's take advantage of it. I love the beach.
The Way I See It:
You can't practice worship. You can't try. You either do or you don't. And it's not about what you see, what you hear, even what you say or sing. It has nothing to do with who is leading it, it has nothing to do with where you are when you worship... it's all about Jesus.
20050408
I wouldn't pronouce it like that
I should just assume that everything I say is being recorded.mmmm.... rain.
Yesterday was one of the best days I've ever had. It's totally in the top 16. Yesterday afternoon was splendid. Cold water, but incredible. Smiles all around... You know.
Last night's worship practice was short but so good. We got things done, and God broke through all the preparations and His majesty fell. Oh my. It was spine-tingling. I could have gone all night.
WIRELESS! Wireless Bass, Wireless guitar, Wireless acoustic, Wireless mic, Wireless monitor... yeah buddy.
I need to take Jared out to lunch or something... I need to do something with Jared. I want to hang out with him so much. He's an awesome guy and I want to know him like only a brother can, but I feel like I don't know him at all. I don't like that feeling. I love him, I want him to know that.
Tonight, 8:pm-10:pm, worship in the sanctuary. Join us.
Forever I am changed by Your love, in the presence of Your majesty.
DannyBoy's deal was cancelled. Poop.
The Way I See It:
"Faith is the evidence of things unseen." That's a little more than I can understand. Evidence is proof. Undeniable proof that something is the way it is. Faith is proof. Proof of what? What can faith proove? Things not seen. Faith prooves that there is a spiritual world. "Without faith I can do nothing." That means that the spiritual world controls the physical world. Without faith, I couldn't function... I wouldn't be able to do anything. The important question is, "where is your faith?". Levi, where is your faith?
20050404
one for the price of two
My hands are raw right now, and that is a feeling that I miss. Dave, Kris and I worked on the yard all day today. It looks really good. The best it's ever looked methinks. I also fixed up the plot around the mailbox and that should look really nice in a couple weeks... I hope.I got my in-ear monitors today... We'll be using that for youth weekend.
Speaking of youth weekend, PRAY. If nothing else, pray for everyone and everything involved... but mostly pray that God will be glorified in everything we do, not just the weekend, but the weeks before it, and the weeks after it. This is about Him.
I kinda like the fact that only a few people have my number right now. However, come 12:01am Wednesday, it will be the old number again... so the anonymity will cease. But I really like NEXTEL. Everyone should get NEXTEL so we can do the annoying little walkie talkie thing. That would ROCK!
I'll be in DC on Wednesday doing a soccer game.
Death and Taxes... all this month.
"To die is gain." "Death would be the greatest adventure."
The Way I See It:
Out of all the conversations(some which have turned into debates) about Heaven and what it will be like, I have deducted this: We have no idea, We don't have the imagination for it. We can't dream big enough. It's more than we can imagine. And because of that, I'm even more excited about it, looking forward to it even more, wanting it so much. We won't get bored, tired or sick of worshipping God, walking with Jesus, dwelling in His awesome and very real presence. It won't be like a dream, it is a REAL place. ooooh... chills.
20050402
just like the movies
Scott and I are so much alike.What does success look like for me? What is my personal goal? Good question.
I got my new cell phone today... it's hot like woah. It takes video. I'm not sure why, but it does. I have a temp number right now, but my normal, old number will work on it come Wednesday. Get Nextel so we can walkie talkie.
I want to be a good leader.
Today(Friday) was abnormal. It was good though... meetings, printing, beach, coffee, signs, airsoft, movies, pizza... Right now Dave, Dave, Nick, Paul, Noah and John and I are sitting in the living room watching a Jackie Chan movie.
HEY!
LIFE. It is being attacked in the healines, on the news, and it's on everyone's thoughts lately. From Terri Shiavo to the Tsunami to the Pope, and even back to Scott Peterson's DOUBLE homicide, this year has been heavy on the value, or sometimes the disrepect of life. Something needs to happen. Something is bound to happen. This is a perfect set up for a country's redemption, or a country's damnation. "If my people... will humble themselves and pray... I will heal their land"
I'm not trying to be vague about it... as long as YOU know what I'm talking about... that's all I really care about.
The Way I See It:
For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. There are consequences for what we do, however... there are consequences for things we don't do. There are consequences to life. I realize that even if I neglect something or put something off, or I don't complete something, or don't complete it the way it's supposed to be... there will be an equal and opposite reaction. It's so easy to NOT do something. It's so easy to quit halfway... but there will be consequences... so now I'm back to the taking risks thing.
Dude, it's 4:44 in the morning.
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