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20050921

time lapse photo op

I should apologize for saying that I couldn't wait to be with
Heather, that made it sound like she's not worth waiting for, or that
somehow my love for her diminishes with time. On the contrary I love
Heather more and more with every day that escapes us. And I can
honestly say that I have never been more content with my feelings and
desires, hopes, love, and future options. I am at peace and content
standing outside her window in the middle of the midnight rain,
waiting for her. I love her. So much more than you could ever
deduct from any blog post, e-mail, letter, conversation, song, dance,
or period of time. This is supernatural. It is not normal.

And if you're sick of hearing about it..... um, you don't have to
read this :)

I don't want you to think that I don't appreciate people commenting,
but I DO NOT appreciate people commenting anonymously. I think I may
have said this, oh, about.... A MILLION TIMES, but it's one of the
biggest peeves of mine. maybe I'll just go back to deleting
anonymous posts regardless of how good they are. Oh, and unless it's
painfully obvious, signing a post with "me" or "the person you saw
yesterday" doesn't count. Sorry chickens.

Joshy lost his other front tooth yesterday. He has a black hole in
his mouth.

The first person to give me $10,000 will get a free boat ride on my
new sailboat.

SHOES!

Heather, you are the cheese on my cracker.

take this quiz! It's actually really good, like nothing I've seen. It's important that you put in serious answers.

posted at 12:56 PM | 18 Comments | leave a comment

20050916

the future's for discovering

is there anybody out there who
is lost and hurt and lonely too
they're bleeding all the colors into one
and a few come undone
as if you've been run through
some catapult who fired you
you wonder if your chance will ever come
or if you're stuck in square one

The wonderful and glamorous city of Chesapeake was approached by my father, the homeowner and financier of the aforementioned project, and this was their reply:

"heck no."

Apparently it's not legal or prudent in their eyes to construct a living space for a desperately in love couple. And yes, we have explored all the options of making it work to their plans, and well, for that price, you can buy a small home. Oh well... back to square one.

I work at a church, I have no money, I can't even get engaged, so I can't get married. I need a hug.

I am not without hope though... don't think I've gone to the pits of despair and nothing can pull me out. Coming out of this whole fiasco, Heather and I both emerge with more hope, or at least SOME hope of SOMETHING popping up out of the blue. The problem is that it's not urgent to anyone but us.

No one seems to see the rush unless you're IN LOVE. So it's still frustrating because everyone is convinced that we can take our time. And we can, but we don't really want to, and we don't feel like we have to. In fact, to us, it's better to step out in faith with no prospects and nothing to lean on except for Jesus. Isn't that what faith is anyway? And I don't think we are being irresponsible by doing so either. It would be a different story if we were lazy about it and just expecting things to fall in our lap. Blood, sweat, gatorade and tears have been spilt over the course of our courtship, building us stronger, bringing us closer, but still not really reaching that goal.

So maybe I'm asking for help, maybe I'm just spreading the news of what's going on in our lives, and maybe I'm encouraging myself by typing out these words: God is in control. I'm done.

when you get what you want, but not what you need... ...stuck in reverse.

I am so in love.

posted at 12:18 PM | 6 Comments | leave a comment

20050913

develop mental condition

My parents, God bless them, have agreed to let me build the upper-
room of the detached garage in their backyard into a "studio
apartment". (I know, it's very Jewish of me) Now it's just a matter
of convincing the great City of Chesapeake that it's a wise and
profitable thing to do for our commonwealth and our future as a
country. That way I would be able to marry Heather Joy, keep the
4Runner, live in Chesapeake, and still eat some of my dad's cooking. :)

I am so in love.

Heather and I are NOT engaged yet... trust me, when I know...
EVERYONE will know. :) I wouldn't be able to keep THAT a secret. We
are awaiting "approval" from the authorities above us. i.e. Parents
and Building Inspectors.

These are exciting times.

These are stressful times.

I need help. So I'm asking for help. I need people to help me
build, move, dig, insulate, drywall, cut, donate, whatever. If you
think you can help, and you want to help... Heather and I would
greatly appreciate it.

I mostly need money.

There, I came out and said it..

Listen to Helena on the new Nickel Creek album. Rocks.

Tell Heather I love her. Over and over.

oh, and I DO weigh enough to bleed.

give blood.

posted at 5:04 PM | 4 Comments | leave a comment